Wednesday, May 5, 2010
So lately I've been not quite myself. I've been that bitchy-teary-eyed-stressed out-moody-monster from hell that is exhausting to cope with. For those around me, and for me too. I intensely dislike this person.
I've been trying to figure out what's causing it all, so I can overcome and get back to being me. It seems there are far more stresses and frustrations at work than I normally have to deal with. And there are some issues relating to Son and his future plans (which are rapidly approaching, and are the beginning of the end of him living with me.) And there are things to do with Mom, and her unhappiness, and my lack of control and input and ability to affect any change. In a very real way I have lost my mom.
And I hope that finally identifying what is causing my upset will help me find acceptance and peace and tranquility.
One huge help today came in the form of an email from Master. I had written to Him that,
"I am absolutely feeling very fragile and on the verge of tears, the stress must be really getting to me."
And He replied,
Do you need me to come over and kick some ass?
I’m all out of bubblegum!
How awesome to have someone so in my corner and on my side. I was completely clueless about the bubblegum, but thought He was terrific to volunteer to get my staff into shape.
But I did ask about the bubblegum. It seems that it's a line from the movie, "They Live" which had the following line,
"I have come here to chew bubblegum and kick ass...and I'm all out of bubblegum."
All I'll say is that every little girl deserves to be protected and fought for that way, and I'm very grateful.
Here's hoping I regain my equilibrium and inner peace real soon!